Dear Friend:

I have had so much fun telling you the story of Kevin and me. Thank you for reading. I hope that I have been able to add a little more fun to your days. However, due to personal circumstances the nature of which are not hard to guess at, I have decided to suspend the blog indefinitely. I hope that one day I will be able to tell you how our story ends, something that as of yet I myself do not know. 

XOXOXO

Claudia.

Busy

Mon, Sep 10, 2012 at 9:23 AM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

Hello Gorgeous:

It’s going to be a busy day. I have three back to back meetings.  My mom is arriving tonight.

I can’t wait until tomorrow. It’s going to be awesome.

What do you have planned for today?

XOXO

SYB

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Mon, Sep 10, 2012 at 11:30AM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

Hello my love:

I’m going to be at PA meetings all day. I have two interviews and have to take pictures of the PA officers for our first issue of the year.

I’ll check in later night.

I love you. I want to taste you so badly.

XOXOXOXOXO

HFG

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Mon, Sep 10, 2012 at 9:30 PM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

It’s been the longest day in history. I’ll tell you all about it tomorrow. What time are we meeting? Did you find a tequila bar near your office? If not yet, I can look too.  I don’t really care where we go as long as I get to be with you.

Goodnight my love.

XOXOXO

HFG

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Mon, Sep 10, 2012 at 10:16 PM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

Sweet Dreams, Roya. I can’t wait to have you all to myself for a while.

XOXO

SYB

 

*NOTE

GOOOAAAL!!!

Sun, Sep 9, 2012 at 9:50 AM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX

Good morning HFG,

Fucking your boyfriend's brains out is productive.  It is good for both of us.

I am off to my sister's today.  There will be a 100% increase in tension.  Things are already crazy and we haven't even left yet.  Oh well, it looks like a nice day for a train ride.

Have a great day.  I love you.

SYB

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Sun, Sep 9, 2012 at 1:49 PM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX

To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

Good morning my love:

I was writing you this morning when I was rudely interrupted then had to rush off to a soccer game. Oh, the joy of it all. Still, we shouldn't complain. Nadi’s team won 3-0 and she scored a goal which was a source of pride and joy! I hope the tensions are kept at bay, just simmering and not boiling over. In my family boiling over, would mean two people get into a shouting match and one person leaves town to not speak to the other person for months. It happens more often than one would think with all these people living such long ways away and getting together just a few times a year, if that.

Any hoo, I want to hear all about the visit on Tuesday, or earlier if you want to write about it. I can't wait to see you!!

XOXOXO

HFG

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Sun, Sep 9, 2012 at 9:40 PM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX

GOOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAL!  A person scores so few in a lifetime.  I hope she celebrated.  A recent study shows that people who celebrate, score more often.  Soccer isn't a time for modesty or humility.

It is low level tension.  No one says anything, but lots of eyes rolling, etc.  We had a nice day relatively.  We had steak for dinner, how bad could it be?

My mom is with them for a few days.  She comes back Wednesday and then leaves on Thursday.  It will be so nice to see you.  I miss you.

I love you HFG.

SYB

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Sun, Sep 9, 2012 at 10:04 PM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX

To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

I miss you too. Goodnight my love.

XOXO

HFG.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

It's Raining...

Sat, Sep 8, 2012 at 1:36 PM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX

Hey HFG,

Love you.  Hope you are enjoying this very humid day.  Not much time on the computer today.  I have to grab moments when I can.

SYB

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Sat, Sep 8, 2012 at 2:15 PM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX

To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

Hey you:

Love you too. Crazy day with the children, otherwise I'm fine. Food shopping, etc. The highlight is that Maggie is coming over with a bottle of wine in the late afternoon. Hope now that the torrent has abated you can venture out and about.

XO

HFG

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Sat, Sep 8, 2012 at 9:36 PM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX

To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

It's raining...do you hear it?

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Sat, Sep 8, 2012 at 11:24 PM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX

I did hear it, and I thought of you.

It is the end of a very long day.  It went well, but I am exhausted.  It was a lot of work.  At any rate, sweet dreams my love.  I hope visions of you fill my dreams.

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Sat, Sep 8, 2012 at 11:27 PM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX

To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

You did good, kemosabe.

Sweet dreams. I hope I will be doing something very productive if I appear in them : ) .

Crazy as Hell

Fri, Sep 7, 2012 at 11:02 AM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX

To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

Good morning:

Did you take the day off to be with your mom today or are you at work? I hope you're having a pleasant day, a little humid but better than rain.

XOXOXO

Me

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Fri, Sep 7, 2012 at 11:30 AM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX

Hello you,

I am home with my mom today.  We are hanging out in the yard with the paper and the cats.  We will grab lunch and then go to the Metropolitan.  She is cooking dinner tonight.  My blackberry is keeping me kind of busy.  It is humid.  We won't be able to walk around much because my mom is a little uncomfortable.  What are you up to?  Any luck with the mission statement?

Me

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Fri, Sep 7, 2012 at 11:55 AM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX

To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

It sounds lovely. Good for you for taking the day off.

When all is good with us, everything can be handled in my life. I finished the mission statement, got it edited by my wonderful new cohort, Silia, and approved by the PA prez and vice-prez. Today, I'm putting together the email address list for the volunteers, all 26 of them, and sending out a "welcome" email that includes the invitation to lunch on Sept 28.

I'm going to go to the Met tonight and see the exhibit I told you about that will leave soon. I'm dropping Nadi off at the birthday at Dalton's gym at 5:00. So, you'll probably be back home by then getting ready for dinner, your mom making you get stuff. I love it : ) Enjoy your mom. I hope she'll cook something really yummy, although I'm sure it won't be yummier than you : )

XOXOXOXOXO

HFG

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Fri, Sep 7, 2012 at 12:25 PM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX

Hey you,

I love you.  It is nice to hear that we improve your life.  That is what we are for.  It works that way for me too.  You are the best and hottest girlfriend.  By the way, I don't mean the royal we.  I just don't want to take credit.  It really is us being together, therefore "we", that makes this so great.

I might check that exhibit out too.  I am not sure what kind of legs my mom has.  Sometimes we just end up sitting in one of the cafes.

Great news about the mission statement.  You were afraid it was going to take forever.  Well done.  You have your shit together.  Just part of your general awesomeness.

Not as yummy as you either.  I am looking forward to my next taste.  Your boyfriend needs you bad.  He has some plans for you too.  Back to the point about you being the hottest girlfriend; that killer bod of yours is so great.  I love being naked with you.  It feels so great to just rub our bodies together. 

XOXOXOXOX

Crazy as hell for you,

SYB

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Fri, Sep 7, 2012 at 1:01 PM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX

To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

"We" provide such nice things for each other: Breaks during the day, company and fun in the evening, and on some afternoons...I really have no words for that.  I love you, I love feeling your body against the entire length of mine. I can't wait to see you!!

Write me after dinner and tell me how the meal turned out.

Have fun!

XOXOXOXOXOXOXO

HFG

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Fri, Sep 7, 2012 at 5:52 PM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX

Today was a bad day for the MET.  All of the exhibits were closed.  I should have checked the dates.  The cloud thing was closed because of the heat.  It was still fun though.  My mom seems to have enjoyed it.

I will write more after dinner.  I was just thinking about you and thought I would write.  I love you.  I want to see your beautiful face soon.  You are my HFG.

SYB

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Fri, Sep 7, 2012 at 10:28 PM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX

To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

Oh, Kevin, I'm so sad. I slapped Nadi tonight in front of her friend, because she wouldn't stop insisting on going to the friend's (who can't afford anything better) summer camp, when I had just put down the deposit on the summer camp she likes for the third year. I don't even respect that summer camp, because they do nothing for the 3 weeks, but I figure since they're kids they should do nothing for at least 3 weeks. This camp her friend goes to is a farm camp and has a slaughter house section. It horrifies me. If it weren't for my husband, this would be a vegetarian household. I just can't stand the thought of killing, the moment that life is taken. When I'm stoned I often can't eat meat. And if I do, I have the decency to remember what's what.

I can't believe I slapped her, I'm so upset.

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Fri, Sep 7, 2012 at 10:32 PM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX

To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

I thought about you the whole time I was at the exhibit. I'm not sure if it was appropriate for a mother son outing. Did you see it? It wasn't closed. I'm glad your mom liked the cloud thing, it's cool, but the inside can induce vertigo.

What did she cook for dinner? I forgot to tell you that there is a Fairway on 86th St. not far from the museum. 

I'll tell you about the exhibit later, when I can think more. I miss you, I wish I could be in your arms now.

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Fri, Sep 7, 2012 at 10:53 PM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX

We didn't make it to the cloud thing.  It was closed due to heat.  She didn't go in to the exhibit. It was too crowded and hot.  She is having a lot of trouble with the heat.  She is overweight. She cooked scallops and sausage.  It was really good.  We also had corn.  I love corn.

I wish we could be together now too.  It is a bit tense here.  I would love to have some me time with you.

Slapping isn't good, but it is normal.  That is life.  I am sure you explained what's what.  A slaughter house is likely to reinforce your vegetarian lifestyle.  I am sure that is a horrific place.  Regardless, it is too late to make a change.  Question is moot.  Also part of life.  You love her, it will be fine.  It is camp.  You don't have to respect it.  She needs to learn to be away.  Small doses are the key.  Sweet dreams my love.  I have Roya on the brain right now.  You are my angel.

XOXO

SYB

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Fri, Sep 7, 2012 at 11:53 PM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX

To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

We didn't make it to the cloud thing.  It was closed due to heat.  She didn't go in to the exhibit.

I got that. I think that was a good thing. It has a lot of stairs and weirdly oriented spaces. I didn't realize a lot of the galleries were closed. I went to the Rodin and some pre-impressionists on the way to the photography one. It was really good, very small. I read every plaque. I like going to museums by myself. Nude photography first started as an aid to painters and sculptors, an alternative to paying a model. Some of the photographs were a little pornographic, some of the modern ones, the old ones were really cool. The surreal ones too. There was a hermaphrodite I couldn't make heads or tails of.  The nude was also used as a scientific tool and an anthropological one. It would’ve been fun to see it with you.

It was too crowded and hot.  She is having a lot of trouble with the heat.  She is overweight.

You always say that. How over weight is she? Like what's her weight compared to her height? Or how many pounds overweight?

She cooked scallops and sausage.  It was really good.  We also had corn.  I love corn.

I know you love corn : ) I'm glad the meal turned out well and you liked it.

I wish we could be together now too.  It is a bit tense here. 

I hope nothing you can't handle. Silent tension or verbal tension?

Slapping isn't good, but it is normal.  That is life.  I am sure you explained what's what.  A slaughter house is likely to reinforce your vegetarian lifestyle.  I am sure that is a horrific place.  Regardless, it is too late to make a change.  Question is moot.  Also part of life.  You love her, it will be fine.  It is camp.  You don't have to respect it.  She needs to learn to be away.  Small doses are the key.  

Thanks for listening to me : ) You're always there. I'm grateful for that.

Sweet dreams my love.  I have Roya on the brain right now.  You are my angel. : )

I love you. I miss you so much. Rest well my Kevin. You can sleep in tomorrow.

XOXOXOXO

HFG.

 

 

 

 

The Question of Condoms

*NOTE

When Kevin and I first met, we obviously used protection, and continued to do so throughout the summer. However, as our relationship developed, I felt that I should bring up the reason why I wasn't proposing for us to set aside the type of protection which committed people usually don't use. Also, I knew that most men prefer to have intercourse without it, and some, in fact, insist on not using it. Kevin had never mentioned it, and I figured that he had either settled into using them, or was being considerate of me. So, I wanted to let him know that although I yearned to take this step toward further intimacy, I was depriving him of the experience not because I didn't trust his commitment to me, but because I didn't want to pass on warts to him. If he wanted a condom free experience, I was all for it, but it would be risky. I felt the choice should be his. I wrote him about it, and waited anxiously for his response. Kevin was wearing condoms as contraception, and hadn't given them much thought beyond that.   

Thu, Sep 6, 2012 at 12:38 PM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX

To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

I know that could be an issue, but you've been fine with a condom this whole time. Although, I understand that it's better without. I wouldn't count on a condom for birth control though. It's only about 70% effective because the most microscopic hole can let in sperm. I haven't used birth control in several years. Getting pregnant in your early forties without help and stuff isn't really that probable

The ending of this email hasn't survived from that day.

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Thu, Sep 6, 2012 at 2:55 PM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

Early-forties?  I thought you were early 30's!  Holy crap, you are super-hot!

The last time I had sex with someone other than my wife was 1985.  AIDS was called GRID.  I have never exhibited any symptoms of any STDs.

I think we should both use birth control.  Whether you do is your choice.  I wouldn't be comfortable without it for me.  Nobody gets hurt that way.  Is the experience different for you if I wear a condom?  It isn't really for me, other than the interruption.

Speaking for myself, we are committed to each other.  I am madly in love with you.  However, we are also committed to others.  I am not ready to concede that commitment.

When you mentioned getting closer, did you mean not using latex?  Or just sharing this information?

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Thu, Sep 6, 2012 at 3:29 PM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX

To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

You know, you have this really irritating girlfriend who can never leave good enough alone, oh no, she's got to have 100% of everything. When I said, closer I meant using no latex. If we use latex, sharing the information would be pretty irrelevant. It doesn't make any difference to me in terms of feeling; I was worried that it makes a difference to you. Of course, we aren't ready to concede our commitment to our spouses. You have your reasons, and I have the children.  I checked out websites again, and it turns out that condoms are a lot more effective in preventing pregnancy than they used to tell us some years back, maybe the manufacturing has improved or now they use spermicides. So, that's fine, but if you'd like me to use a diaphragm too on the off chance, I can.

I'm in love with you too. More than you will ever know.

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Thu, Sep 6, 2012 at 4:02 PM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

I want to fuck you right now.

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Thu, Sep 6, 2012 at 8:21 PM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX

To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

Hey u:

I'm on the bus going home from massage so I'm typing on the tiny screen.  I'm all thumbs :)

I hope ur mom got in safe and sound. Did u pick her up at the airport or did she catch a cab since she used to live here?

I thought on Tuesday, wherever u decide we should meet, we should drink shots of tequila.  I can probably do three but after that u'd have to find me under the table. And after all those shots God only knows what I would be doing! We should chase it down with something like beer.

Xxxxxxxoooooo

HFG

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Thu, Sep 6, 2012 at 9:44 PM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

Hey HFG,

I don't know about 3, but we will see.  I like tequila.  I will find a good place for that.

My mom is here, safe and sound.  She takes the bus to Grand Central and I met her there.  We take the subway home together. 

I can't spend much time on the computer.  Have a great night.  Love you.

SYB

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Thu, Sep 6, 2012 at 11:43 PM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX

To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

Well, three is my limit, we could do less.

Does your mom take the bus to Grand Central from the airport or from Minneapolis? Is that a stupid question? That was sweet of you to meet her at the station. If it's hard for her to get around and she tires easily, why didn't you guys take a cab?

I hope you're having fun. Good-night. I love you SYB!

HFG.