Almost four years ago, I fell in love for the first time--twenty-five years too late--and began an affair. Over the years, Kevin and I have met several times a week and email several times a day. I have kept almost all of the emails that I sent to him and that he sent to me. Along the way, there has been laughter and tenderness and heat...and heartache.

This blog is the posting of our daily emails. It chronicles the lives of two people over a four year period so far, and tells the story of our burgeoning love against the backdrop of New York City.

The names and addresses have been changed to protect the innocent; the rest is 100% real.

The daily update structure helps keep the blog as authentic as possible as well as living up to its title. It also strives to provide the reader with the kind of pleasure that a soap opera offers--a daily dose of voyeuristic fun.

Please begin at the beginning, otherwise, little will make sense.

Enjoy.




Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Mom & Maggie

Tue, Aug 28, 2012 at 8:24 AM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

Good morning Roya,

I try to practice every day.  The day after rehearsal is very important.  It is when I incorporate the changes we make.  Rehearsal is a hard place to learn anything.  I really just take notes and "learn" it the next day.

I had a chicken sandwich for dinner.  It would have definitely made you cock your head, especially the potato chips.

It is hard to make preparations for my mom's visit.  She is essentially handicapped.  Anything physical is a problem, that includes museums, shopping and hanging out in the park.  We have a dinner reservation at a place called Chez Josephine that I think she will like.  The other complication is my sister.  She changes her plans constantly.  Worse, sometimes she is so mean to my mother that my mom wants to leave.  The last time, my sister paid for the ticket for two weeks and then essentially kicked her out after two days.  In the end, there will be a whole lot of “what do you want to do?” I don't know, what do you want to do?”  I am hoping that my mom will cook.  Otherwise, I will just play it by ear.  Of course my staff has all sorts of days off already planned so I can't take much time to be with her.  It will be nice to have her here though.

My wife is going to spend some time with her mother and her horse.  It leaves me with time to myself.  I hope we can take advantage.

XOXOXOXOX

SYB
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Tues, Aug 28, 2012 at 10:48 AM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX
To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

Good morning my love:

Now, you know I'm not against junk food per se. It just depends on what kind. Potato chips, like say Cape Cod or Wise even have no chemicals and are all natural. So, although, they aren't organic, they aren't that bad. They're cooked I believe in vegetable oil. You can certainly afford fattening stuff, just not animal fat.

When you say, she's handicapped what do you mean by that? She gets tired fast, or gets out of breath or her legs start to hurt? It's kind of congenial that everyone asks what do other people want to do . In my family, everyone wants to do what they want and so the fights are over that. My mother too has left my sister's after a couple of days. My mother is a really good cook and she likes to take over in the kitchen. For me, it's no problem, I hate the kitchen although I can make good stuff if I put my mind to it, but my sister is possessive over her kitchen, so the last time they had the blow out over what should go into the salad! Can you imagine? Obviously, that's just a symptom of a lot bigger issues.

So, will your wife spend time with her or will she go to work too? What will she do all day at home? In a different life, I would've taken her out to lunch and we could've gotten drunk together and I'd make her tell me stories about when you were little. If my mom told those stories they would have nothing to do with reality and every one of them would make her look really good. So, the emails were so crazy yesterday, what are the dates of her visit and your wife's departure? What a humid day today is!! I hope your ACs work. Has that problem been permanently solved? I have major plans with Maggie today since it's her day off with the children. So, I'll probably be out of touch in the afternoon.

I love you SYB, I can't wait to see you. And it's only Tuesday!

XOXOXOX

HFG
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Tue, Aug 28, 2012 at 11:25 AM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

When I say she is handicapped, I mean she cannot do things that able people can do.  "Tired" is not sufficient.  It is more than that.  It isn't just out of shape.  She can't walk up stairs, or cover any distance.  She gets extremely tired easily.  I have to walk so slowly to stay with her that I can get tired if I am not careful.  One time I hurt my back.  She has problems with her feet and hips.  She has a thousand food issues, none of which stop her from eating.  She is overweight.

They aren't being congenial.  They are laying ground work for future complaints.  "We always do what X wanted."  "Doesn’t she know I can't/didn't want to..."  "Who wants to that?"  It sounds like your sister and my sister have a similar relationship with their mothers.  I don't even like being around it.

My wife will not spend time with her.  She used to, but won't anymore.  In fact, she will plan things to conflict with other plans.  Sometimes they go to Operas together.  She will join us for some things.

My mom likes to sleep late and lounge for several hours.  She doesn't go anywhere before about 1 or 2.  She used to do all kinds of things by herself here.  Now she sits and waits for me to come home.  I usually go out and get her the newspaper.  She will read and nap.

My mom’s stories have little to do with reality either.  Curiously, she doesn't represent herself as anything special.  She remembers an idyllic suburban life that she never lived.  There are a few years, mostly in the 80's, that we all seem to have different memories of.  In much the same way that my family history turns out to be inaccurate.  You would have a good time drinking with her.  She likes to party.

My mom is here from the 6th to the 13th.  My wife is gone from the 13th to the 22nd.

AC is working today.  Perhaps too much.  There are always complaints.  Each person is comfortable in a range of about 4 degrees.  However, the range in which different people are comfortable is about 10 degrees.  That leaves 60% of the people unhappy all the time.  Plus, when the weather changes, the temp changes inside.  All of the adjustments we make for one day are bad on the next day.  It is a constant battle in which people are always in an extreme state.  If they are cold, they are freezing to death and wearing parkas, even if it is 72 degrees.  If they are hot, they are boiling and can't work, even if it is 72 degrees.  So even when it works, it doesn't

work for everybody.  That said, it wasn't working for anybody about two weeks.  The computer system that controlled it was not working right.  I think it is fixed.

Her day off with the children?  That sounds funny.  Is she divorced?  What will you do?

XOXOXOXO

SYB
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Tue, Aug 28, 2012 at 12:08 PM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

Hello my love,

Do you think it matters if we have a queen or king size bed?  Do you care if there is a view?  Neither matters much to me.  I think it is more important that the window open than anything else.  Since we don't plan on sleeping, the size of the bed doesn't really matter either.  I will be happy anywhere I can be alone with you.

I hope you are having fun with Maggie.  My day turned out ok.  Glad to be leaving soon though.  I am looking forward to going to the gym.

Love you and your hot little body,

SYB
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Tues, Aug 28, 2012 at 5:48 PM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX
To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

I don't care about the size of the bed or the view. I do care about the windows opening. We r on the same page. I’ll write more when I get home. These tiny screens make me nuts.
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Tue, Aug 28, 2012 at 6:09 PM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

I love being on the same page with you.
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Tues, Aug 28, 2012 at 7:33 PM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX
To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

Hello my love:

Finally, finally I'm home with a little peace and quiet for an hour before the troops get back from soccer practice.

This morning we had pure drama when Piggy decided to wedge himself inside the toilet mechanism. Nadi had let him loose in their bathroom and he went behind the toilet. I had let him loose in mine too, but he never went there, thank God. So, now we know our toilets have this hole. She comes out crying and carrying on. I had visions of the dead bird. So, I had to call 911. The fire department doesn't handle that anymore. What happened to them saving cats out of trees?! So, the cops were going to come, or not. I had to lug my tool box all the way upstairs, because I figure if I could shut off the water, and unscrew the bolts, I could move the toilet. I thought of you so much, because I don't think I could've moved the toilet even pull it on the floor, I needed somebody strong with muscles. Anyway, finally I told them to bang on the toilet, because if he weren't stuck he would get out, he did get out, but in the whole process while I was on all fours, I pulled this muscle in my lower back. Not as bad as before, but stiff all damn day. So, I'm going to DC to visit our relatives. There is a big enclave of Iranians there. I have my aunt, who is as insane as my mother, her sister, and my cousin I told you about whom I love who is having a baby in Oct. My aunt hates his wife because she's a peasant, but she isn't one of those peasants with a chip on her shoulder, she knows she married up and is really nice to my cousin and the whole family. I like her. I can't be her best friend because she's a bit dumb and unsophisticated, but I do like her. Then I have our niece who was visiting, remember who married a friend of Bill's, Wilson, who was flabbergasted that none of us could name a whole bunch of states in the middle of America. So, his wife goes, nobody cares where Nebraska is and nobody ever will, which I guess is true enough, but still, one should know the states. But he was very happy about this really pure Arkansas water I buy and drank several glasses of it. Then there are a bunch of second cousins I won't mind seeing. So, there you have it. What's in DC.

As for Maggie, she works 4 days a week, with Tuesday off. She's been divorced since her daughter was like 1. Some years back she met this Austrian guy who is a master carpenter and has a small plane he flies and does hand gliding. I really liked him, but instead of just having him as a boyfriend, she moved him in with her and bought a house, and the whole thing was very hard because what's his role with the kids? When the kids are with the real parents, it's a mess, let alone when the kids don't belong to one or another parent. And he smokes which she can't stand being an MD, but she dismissed it when they first met when she had on rose colored glasses. She also objects to him being too blue color, although he's pretty sophisticated. Anyway, they broke up some months ago. So, if you know a nice man, let me know.

Today, Maggie and I were supposed to take the kids to his farm upstate called Hawthorne Valley Farm to see if we want to join the organic coop they have, but we realized that it's a 2.5 hour drive each way, so I suggested, and this is where I have to make a confession and an apology! I suggested we take the kids to the Met to see the installation I told you about. I'm sorry : ) after I harangued you about it forever. It was interesting, small but interesting, the kids thought it was all right, but they think it should be an amusement park ride instead of an art installation, so of course it didn't live up to expectation. But I liked it fine. You should go, I think you'll like it. It's different. I'll tell you about it on Thursday if you're interested. We wandered through some contemporary galleries which was fine. They have a couple of Balthuses.

And all this is because I said to myself, self I said, you know that all you want from Kevin is sex, that he's just a sex object to you and nothing more, so take the kids to the exhibit, and have sex with Kevin.

So, now I'll take my exhausted self into a long hot bath. I wish you were here : XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

HFG
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Missing email from Kevin. My reply sufficiently illustrates its contents.
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Tues, Aug 28, 2012 at 11:31 PM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX
To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

Unfortunately, this is where the small government business model proves superior to large government. Government should make laws and make sure greed, etc. doesn't compel citizens to harm each other, not run services like the post office, etc. For example, the next time instead of relying on government services which supposedly for our taxes go to, but are actually all go into the pockets of arms dealer who start wars all over the world, I'll simply trigger the fire alarm. It goes directly to ADT, a private company, who makes sure the firemen are here in like 5 minutes. I can't tell you how many times I've sent a bevy of them away after a pointless fire alarm.

I can't believe you saying so insensitive about poor Piggy, although this isn't the first time I heard the suggestion to buy another one. All animals look different. All guinea pigs look as unique as all humans. We just can't tell them apart for the same reason I can't tell Asians apart, because I haven't seen or dealt with enough of them long enough! Piggy dying would've been tragic.

I can't argue with being a confused woman. But even so, my Kevin, you aren't really a sex object to me, you are so much more...you will never really know. I miss you.

XOXOXO

Me.
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Tue, Aug 28, 2012 at 11:43 PM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

I want to be a sex object! 

Poor Piggy.  Of course it would have been tragic, and traumatic.  I wasn't suggesting that as a solution.  Only a way to recover your children's mental health if things go wrong.  Removing a toilet is dangerous.  So many bad things could have happened to the poor guy.  Did you think to call a plumber?  The fire department needs to practice deploying ladders, that is why they rescue cats.  Plumbing, not so much.  They tend to destroy things to save them.  God bless them, but if they come to rescue you, things are bad or they are going to make them bad.  Between their axes and their hoses, yikes, look out.  Plumbers on the other hand are very careful and probably know all about removing small furry things from that exact spot.

Sweet dreams my love.  Thursday is coming.

SYB.

 

 

 

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