Almost four years ago, I fell in love for the first time--twenty-five years too late--and began an affair. Over the years, Kevin and I have met several times a week and email several times a day. I have kept almost all of the emails that I sent to him and that he sent to me. Along the way, there has been laughter and tenderness and heat...and heartache.

This blog is the posting of our daily emails. It chronicles the lives of two people over a four year period so far, and tells the story of our burgeoning love against the backdrop of New York City.

The names and addresses have been changed to protect the innocent; the rest is 100% real.

The daily update structure helps keep the blog as authentic as possible as well as living up to its title. It also strives to provide the reader with the kind of pleasure that a soap opera offers--a daily dose of voyeuristic fun.

Please begin at the beginning, otherwise, little will make sense.

Enjoy.




Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Chocolate & Shakespeare

Tues, Jun 5, 2012 at 12:04 AM
 
From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX
To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

I have no internet connection. Im testing u from my annoying tiny phone. Can u believe it corrects texting to testing?! I tested earlier on ur phone. Erase it. This is too fucking funny.  I should switch to an iphone!

Xxxxooooo
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Tues, Jun 5, 2012 at 7:42 AM
 
From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX
To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
 
Good morning!

My Internet is working now. Hurray! I texted you last night on your phone, so remember to erase it. This was before I emailed you from my phone. I hate doing it on these tiny keyboards. It’s really early, at least for me. I’m going to watch Nadia’s 6th grade class do scenes from A Midsummer Night's Dream. And the weather is really queer. Now, it’s chilly, the same cloud and sun that leave you taking everything—sunglasses, umbrella. This can’t be good for humans, all this inconsistency. But that’s weather weirding for ya!
 
The other day though when it was raining and sunny, I saw the most beautiful rainbow. I can’t remember the last time I saw one. I don’t think I had seen one like that ever. It was a huge arc. So big it straddled the entire highway, and so vivid. You could see every color of the spectrum so clearly.

More Newsletter stuff today. I’ll finish it and get it to our Web Designer who will put it online tomorrow morning, then no more work until September!
 
I’m so excited about our plans. I hope nothing will ruin them. But I’m going to try to keep my expectations low (although that’s really hard to do!) so anything that happens will be great. High expectations can be very disappointing.
 
And you? Work today?

XXXXOOO
 
R.
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Tues, Jun 5, 2012 at 8:37 AM
 
From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX
 
What a thrill to get an email from you in the morning. Thanks. I saw the text on the phone and got the email. It is a weird sort of irony that it corrects texting to testing.
 
No work until September? I hope there is something (or someone) else in your life to occupy your thoughts. I am excited too. I am really looking forward to spending time with you. I can’t believe I am going to have you all to myself. We always have so much fun. You are right to manage expectations. Anything can happen. As of now, we have an opportunity to have a really great time.
 
Have fun at the play. I love Shakespeare although not that one so much. That probably doesn’t matter at the 6th grade level. What is her part?
 
XOXOXO
 
Me
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Tues, Jun 5, 2012 at 11:55 AM
 
From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX
To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
 
It sure is a thrill for me too to see myself up so early : ) I’m so not a morning person. The performance was fine.  They do the same thing every year, so Isabela was in the same thing last year. It isn’t one of the things the school does that well compared to the high standards they have for everything else. It isn’t a play performance per se. They take the play, isolate the key scenes, have the kids memorize a couple of lines each, work with an acting coach for some weeks, then present it as lines with some gestures on stage. Nadia had the lines of an angry Titania. She did fine. It’s hard to screw this up. This isn’t one of my favorite plays either. At the end of summer, we’ll have to read Julius Caesar to get ready for 8th grade English, and re-read Romeo and Juliette for7th grade English. I get to read all these plays twice. Yes, woe is definitely me : )
 
So now that I’ve bored you to tears with this stuff. How are you? I’ve missed talking to you! And it doesn’t look good until Thursday night maybe late, but then you aren’t home until late probably either, since you have rehearsal. It’s good that we have some plans, otherwise, I would be too sad that we can’t ever connect in real time.
 
Thoughts of being alone with you keep running through my mind, and they are so much fun. They put a stupid smile on my face. I’m having fun with my own mind—I think the definition of that is loony : ) I miss you!
 
XXXXXXXXXXXXX
 
R.
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Tues, Jun 5, 2012 at 12:33 PM
 
From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX
 
Hello Roya:
 
I have been thinking about you all day. Specifically, I have been remembering kissing your chest and shoulders. I love kissing you. We are going to have to do lots of that.
 
I saw Julius Caesar recently. It was a road show put on by the Guthrie Theatre in Minneapolis. The Guthrie is one of the high points of my life in Minnesota. There is culture there, just not much. What is there is excellent. My favorite is Macbeth. I have seen that dozens of times with a wide variety of staging. I am going to see it in July at Lincoln Center. It should be awesome. There is a film called Scotland, PA based on the play with Christopher Walken. That is both absurd and spot on.
 
We should be able to chat on Thursday. I will be out late, but miss you too. It is great that we have plans for 3 days in a row but that all seems so far off. We need to connect before then.
 
I guess I am loony too. I get more than a stupid smile though. At least we have email. I love seeing your emails pop up. I have to change your contact name though. “Claudia” really confuses me. It is so not you, at least to me. Where did you come up with that anyway? It is not a “hot” name, and you are definitely hot. I still can’t believe how beautiful you are. Or rather that a woman as beautiful as you is interest in me.
 
A big fan of you,
 
Me
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Tues, Jun 5, 2012 at 7:10 PM
 
From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX
To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
 
Hello Roya:
 
I have been thinking about you all day. Specifically, I have been remembering kissing your chest and shoulders. I love kissing you. We are going to have to do lots of that.
We absolutely have to. I’ll show you what I like, and you show me what you like. Although, I already know how you like your blow job (are you blushing?) I hope so. I will be absolutely sad if one day you stop blushing.
 
I saw Julius Caesar recently. It was a road show put on by the Guthrie Theatre in Minneapolis. The Guthrie is one of the high points of my life in Minnesota. There is culture there, just not much. What is there is excellent. My favorite is Macbeth. I have seen that dozens of times with a wide variety of staging. There is a film called Scotland, PA with Christopher Wilken. That is both absurd and spot on. I am going to see it in July at Lincoln Center. It should be awesome.
It does sound interesting. I really like Christopher Walken. He’s been in some great movies.
 
We should be able to chat on Thursday. I will be out late, but miss you too. It is great that we have plans for 3 days in a row but that all seems so far off. We need to connect before then.
 
 I guess I am loony too. I get more than a stupid smile though.
Yeah? What do you get?
 
 At least we have email. I love seeing your emails pop up. I have to change your contact name though. “Claudia” really confuses me. It is so not you, at least to me. Where did you come up with that anyway? It is from my childhood.  What isn’t from one’s childhoods?
 My cousin married a half Iranian half American woman named Claudia. She was attractive, and I liked her. I also like “a” at the end of female names. That’s why I named my daughters Isabela and Nadia (they have Persian names as their middle names). So, when I needed a pseudo name to dance under, I culled it up. I guess it sounds Germanic to me, which I have no idea if it is. So, when I needed a last name to go with it to use as a nom de plume for a novel I was writing because I couldn’t have possibly written it under my real name, I chose Bonn. It’s definitely German, and it reminded me of “bon” in French. Why don’t you change my contact to my real name? My routine email is under my own name on Yahoo, but everyone in the household has the pass word to that account.
 
It is not a “hot” name, and you are definitely hot. I still can’t believe how beautiful you are. Or rather that a woman as beautiful as you is interest in me.
Why wouldn’t I be? You are really attractive, in a boyish clean cut way I like, but that’s not the most important thing, you’re intelligent, cultured, funny (on purpose), and most importantly you’re decent. No, I lied, most importantly, you have good taste in women : )
 
I’ve kept the Jacques Torres chocolate bag. It’s sitting in a corner of my room. I don’t throw it out because looking at it reminds me of you. Also, that was truly impressive. I know chocolate, OK? I adore chocolate. I’ve had actual melted chocolate in a fancy place in Paris, I’ve been to fancy chocolate places in NY like Vosges, Maison du Chocolate, Teuscher and some place on Park Ave the name of which I can’t remember, even in Sprungil and the Murkur store in St. Moritz, and I have never in my life seen a lined bag and a tiny ice pouch. You have truly impressed the seasoned.
 
I’m sorry to write at what I guess to be an inopportune timed of day, but it’s the first few minutes I’ve found to myself since early in the morning. We may be able to talk tonight. How late will you be up?
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Tues, Jun 5, 2012 at 7:29 PM
 
From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX
 
 ; )
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Tues, Jun 5, 2012 at 10:27 PM
 
From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX
 
Dear sweet beautiful Roya,
 
I must sleep, perchance to dream. Goodnight.
 
K.
 
 
 

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