Almost four years ago, I fell in love for the first time--twenty-five years too late--and began an affair. Over the years, Kevin and I have met several times a week and email several times a day. I have kept almost all of the emails that I sent to him and that he sent to me. Along the way, there has been laughter and tenderness and heat...and heartache.

This blog is the posting of our daily emails. It chronicles the lives of two people over a four year period so far, and tells the story of our burgeoning love against the backdrop of New York City.

The names and addresses have been changed to protect the innocent; the rest is 100% real.

The daily update structure helps keep the blog as authentic as possible as well as living up to its title. It also strives to provide the reader with the kind of pleasure that a soap opera offers--a daily dose of voyeuristic fun.

Please begin at the beginning, otherwise, little will make sense.

Enjoy.




Tuesday, December 23, 2014

Happily in Love

Tue, Jul 17, 2012 at 9:57 AM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

Hello pretty lady,

How are you today?  Work is going to be crazy.  We are still having trouble with the AC and it should be really hot.  It will probably be above 80 in some offices.  I wish I could hide.

What are you up to?

SNB
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Tue, Jul 17, 2012 at 11:57 AM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX
To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

Hi SNB:

I'm good. When things are good with us, everything is good with me. I'm sorry about the AC stuff. It IS supposed to be extra hot today, although my house is always a little cooler because it's made of stone and stucco. I try not to keep the AC on during the day. I'm one of those people who's always cold, so the heat doesn't really bother me. I turn it on at night when I go to sleep. It's one of those ductless electric systems that every room has its own unit through the wall. They don't look like typical ACs, the condensers are outside. You know the kind I mean? But you, having a high body temperature, probably need the AC : )  I wish I could come hide with you somewhere : )

I was ambushed by my crazy mother first thing this morning. She was beside herself, because she couldn't find her green card, which she confuses with her social security card. And I'm like, they took your green card away when they gave you your citizenship papers. Then she calmed down. I got her her citizenship in case she becomes an invalid to bring her over here. I wouldn't be able to stand the idea of her in some nursing home in Paris with nobody to keep an eye on the staff or visit her but once a year. Taking care of her has fallen squarely on my shoulders, and I'm the baby of the family by a decade and more! It's all because of my relationship with my father. The siblings figure he was the best to me, so I should do it, like they were raised in an orphanage. Sheesh!

I don't envy you your day, mine is atypically slow. I will probably get on the treadmill, call my friend Flora, make a lunch date (I haven't seen her in forever) although my husband thinks I have, and see if she wants to take her son to see Julius Caesar with Isabela and me in the fall, see a movie. Maybe, if I feel like it, I'll re pot some plants. Do you like gardening? Did you ever get to garden in your back yard?

Do you drink coffee or tea? I was thinking about that. When we're together, it's always time for a drink. So, I don't know what you drink in the morning, if you like it strong or decaf. If you ever drink tea, and if so what kind.

I love you, Shiny, stay calm and carry on as they say : ) Remember you love your job.

XOXOXO

Me
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Tue, Jul 17, 2012 at 12:24 PM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

Hello gorgeous,

I do love my job.  Of course one of the reasons I love my job is that I have a great building to run.  The building has let me down. 

I would love to hide with you somewhere.  We would have to hide until the middle of September. 

I have a high body temp, but don't like AC.  It makes me feel funny.  I get sleepy and stiff.  High temps don't bother me as long as I can dress properly.  We haven't run our ac in years.  My wife prefers fans.  The problem with fans is that they are so LOUD.   If I turn the tv on with the fans it is deafening.

I fear that I will have to care for my mother in the future.  My siblings may cooperate more than yours.  However, neither would be very nice to her.  In my sister's case, it would probably be downright gothic.  Maybe along the lines of Sweet Baby Jane.

I have tried gardening from time to time.  It is very relaxing.  Unfortunately, I am not consistent.  This year the garden looks bad.  I have a lot of work to do.  Maybe this weekend.

I drink coke in the morning.  I don't like coffee or tea.  I wish I did.  I am trying to like tea.  It is a bit fussy.  I am lazy.

I love you HFG.  I am relying on my fantasies of you to carry me through the day.

SNB
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Tue, Jul 17, 2012 at 1:19 PM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX
To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

I wish you could do something substantial with the building, charm, blackmail or poison the landlord for instance to fix it once and for all, or get some budget for the AC situation. The summers aren't going to get any cooler, I'm afraid. I read an article about Exxon, and it seems that their mathematical models predict continued use of fossil fuels into this century, that means more climate weirding. We should all move to Colorado or middle of Canada or somewhere like that.

It seems like your wife and my husband have a bunch of things in common. He also prefers fans. Finally, when we renovated, I put a ceiling fan in his room, so he'll shut the hell up. He uses it, but not as much as I thought he would. He also has this tick about certain performers. His are Billy Joel and Bob Seger. I haven't heard a song of theirs in years, because he always changes the station. And I like Billy Joel. The Stranger was the first album I ever bought.

I guess we have some fun coming into our lives when our mothers get older. Let's hope God remains merciful.

I guess I like the idea of gardening more than the act itself. I don't like digging in the dirt too much, but you have to if things are going to come up. I also avoid all pesticides, because you know me. Watering is also kind of a pain. In Westchester, I had beautiful roses, but I had the gardener do the pest control. I do like pruning, tying the branches with string and cutting flowers or picking the veggies etc. to bring inside. I guess I'm a lazy gardener, like you're a lazy stalker when you only thought about coming to the Apple store the day I was there : )
 
The tomatoes are ripening now, and the mint is doing very well. But the lettuce Maggie told me to plant is bitter, a complete waste of time. Next year, I'll plant more basil and chives.

Good thing, I don't wake up with you in the morning, because if I saw you drinking Coke first thing, I would have a heart attack everyday : ) Once both kids are at camp, I'll do a three day juice fast. I've never done one before, but I always wanted to. The only problem is I like to smoke too much. So, once I get the munchies I don't think juice would do it.

You'd have to rely on fantasies or memories? Because if they're fantasies, do share, so I can do my best to make them into reality when I see you.

I'm so in love with you, SNB. I never thought I would fall in love again with anyone. I told you, I made myself a promise not to a long time ago, yet here I am, and so happy about it. I wish I could hug you so tight it would knock the breath out of you.

XOXOXOXO

HFG
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Tue, Jul 17, 2012 at 1:32 PM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

I would gladly trade my breath for a big hug.  Would there be any kissing?

We don't plant any vegetables because we don't want any varmints.  We have a lot of flowers that grow every summer.  There are bleeding hearts, tiger lilies and some other things.  We usually put pansies in each spring.  There are also some flowering trees. The Rose of Sharon is starting to bloom.  I will be sneezing uncontrollably soon.

What is the benefit to a juice fast and why can't you do it with the kids around?  I couldn't live a day on juice.   I mean I could live but I would be really crabby.

They are memories actually.  I am remembering when you walked out of the bathroom wearing only your black bra and panties.  That was so sexy.  I remember the feeling of having my cock in your mouth with both of my hands in your hair.  Ultimately, I am remembering fucking you.  How great it felt to be inside you.  How great it felt to have your legs on me.  Mostly how fantastically beautiful you looked while I made love to you.

I am glad you are in love with me.  You make me so happy. 

XOXOXO

SNB
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Tue, Jul 17, 2012 at 2:28 PM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX
To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

It sounds like a beautiful garden. You told me about the trees when we were talking about the rain falling on leaves. But no sneezing. Allergies are ridiculous. They are silly civilized society disease, like eating disorders. Does anyone in Africa have an eating disorder? Having said that. I'm allergic to my own dog. After I play with him, I have to wash my hands and change my clothes, but I still have one, so we must fight the ridiculousness.

Well, with the kids gone, I don't have to think about what to make for dinner, and their diets. The kitchen is usually taken up with their stuff. Dinner, fruit, fresh orange juice I make them drink that they hate, the little ungrateful buggers. Also, when I go grocery shopping, I can concentrate on what to get, kale, spinach, etc. as opposed to shopping for the family dinners. I guess I could do both. It's just easier when I can concentrate on myself only.

I was reading some of our very first emails. I thought we met in late May, but we actually met in early May. It must've been right around my birthday, June 8, because I was telling you about going to MI for Jacob’s college graduation on the 11th. It's funny that we were born on the same day, the 8th. Eight is the number of eternity.

I'm going to go on my treadmill now, and then try to make myself useful somehow. My favorite nephew (the one who moved to Toronto) is in town and will spend the night. I'll make him go to the concert in the park tonight, sans his wife, Hurray! I hope you haven't gotten too many complaints about the AC.

You make me happy too, Shiny. Now, if I were lucky enough to hug you, do you really think I could stop myself from kissing your gorgeous mouth?

XOXOXOXOXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

HFG
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Tue, Jul 17, 2012 at 3:40 PM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

I never had problems with tree pollen until recently.  It started a few years ago.  That isn't to say I never sneezed before.   The garden is beautiful and so peaceful.  It is so great to be able to go outside.  The cats love it.  When I get home they race to the door and wait for me to let them out.  It is the only thing that excites them more than sleep.

I would love to kiss you right now.  I wish my tongue was in your mouth and my hands were in your beautiful hair.  I would love to feel your body pressed hard against mine.

I think it was late May.  It might have been the 25th or so.  I know we moved it up a bit so maybe you are right.  I feel like I have known you forever.  I still remember our first date.  It was amazing.  You had me at hello.  Actually, before hello when I saw how hot you are.  I was pretty sure you wouldn't be interested even though you seemed to be.  Kissing you on the street was such a thrill.  I still don't understand what a fox like you is doing with me.  Woo Hoo, yay me!

SNB
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Tue, Jul 17, 2012 at 6:36 PM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX
To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

It's nice to have pets. I've read they calm us and extend our lives. And I guess we do the same for them. It's true, we were supposed to meet on June 1, then we moved it to late May, I think 23 or 26, but we were talking online since early May. Probably earlier than the emails on this account, because we exchanged some on AM, but those are gone since I closed the account. Too bad. I should've copied them. I always liked how you asked me questions.

So, next Friday, not this one, but the 27th looks interesting. The night before, he is going to meet former colleagues for dinner, so I said I will have dinner with a friend. On that Friday, he's having lunch with his new boss, and I have massage at round 7, or can pretend I do, that way I can disappear that afternoon. Is that one of the Fridays you're off? We should figure out our strategies, because we tend to have the lunch to 6 or so off these days, although that could change if he starts to work late, which I'm hoping for. But for now exactly the time we want to be together is the time after check out and before check in. So, perhaps we should try one of those hotels or maybe we can find a B&B where the owner wouldn't be breathing down our necks with smiles and cupcakes.

What are your thoughts?

So, I've decided to buy some lingerie. There are a bunch on the UES and a bunch on UWS. I've decided it will be more fun to buy them in your neighborhood. So, while I'm going, anything in particular you've always wanted and haven't yet got? Garter belts, stockings, seams, white cotton panties, boy cut (the leg of those panties go across one's thighs as oppose to rest higher), crotch less panties? Any particular colors? The world of lingerie is yours, name it and ye shall have : )

I'm going to pack the picnic now and head out. I wish it were with you.

I love you.

Me
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Tue, Jul 17, 2012 at 7:03 PM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

Your timeline sounds about right.  We have had so much fun in such a short time.

I should be off on the 27th.  We don't need much.  I only need you and a bed.  Actually, don't need the bed although I prefer it. 

I think you will look good in white.  Garters are hot.  I am not sure about the panties.  They should be something I can take off of you.  I like doing that.  Thinking about it makes me want to fuck you right now.  Your body is awesome!

Enjoy the concert.  I hope you have a great night.

XOXOXOX

SNB
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Tue, Jul 17, 2012 at 10:32 PM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

Good night HFG,

Sweet Dreams.  I love you.

XXOXOOX

SNB.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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