Almost four years ago, I fell in love for the first time--twenty-five years too late--and began an affair. Over the years, Kevin and I have met several times a week and email several times a day. I have kept almost all of the emails that I sent to him and that he sent to me. Along the way, there has been laughter and tenderness and heat...and heartache.

This blog is the posting of our daily emails. It chronicles the lives of two people over a four year period so far, and tells the story of our burgeoning love against the backdrop of New York City.

The names and addresses have been changed to protect the innocent; the rest is 100% real.

The daily update structure helps keep the blog as authentic as possible as well as living up to its title. It also strives to provide the reader with the kind of pleasure that a soap opera offers--a daily dose of voyeuristic fun.

Please begin at the beginning, otherwise, little will make sense.

Enjoy.




Saturday, January 31, 2015

Sleeping Choices

*NOTE
Since I was visiting relatives in Washington, D.C. over the Labor Day week-end, Kevin and I couldn't write as often as we did, but we still managed : )

Sat, Sep 1, 2012 at 2:49 AM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX
To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

What do u mean when you say it turns out u weren't done with me?
I can see if I can book a massage for the 14th at 7:30. But I can't do Tuesday, because it's the first day of school. I even learned about the structure of the Roman government last year so that I was able to put Cincinnatus in context. I love learning new things. School is a good resource.

So yes, don't commit to any of ur other women for Friday.

The room thing must sound strange.  It so happens that as a child I was traumatized by my snoring grandmother.  So since my husband snores , we haven't slept in the same room since  like the third year if our marriage. When the kids came (they are early risers like him), they could all rise together, and since I'm a night person, I could sleep. Well, now they are older. And they sleep in, so I might have to take them both or at least one, but I am hanging on to the present arrangements as long as possible. I wish that u were here too. We could've had fun. So, have a great night. Do u think that's kind of formal, like a business email between us?

 I don't think I'll ever be in a hotel room again without thinking of u. I like u living inside my head.

Good-night sweet Kevin. xxxxooo

hfg
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Sat, Sep 1, 2012 at 11:20 AM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

Hey HFG,

I wanted to have sex with you again.

I was asked to teach a children's karate class on the 14th.  They asked about a couple of dates.  I might do some of them.  Seems like a strange choice to ask me, but whatever.  think they don't have many options.

The room thing sounds great.  I totally get it.  Mostly however, I prefer not to sleep alone.  I like living inside your head.  You are in mine too.  I think about you a lot.

You can say whatever you want.  Our relationship isn't formal.  Words certainly won't make it that way.

I love you Roya.

SYB
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Sat, Sep 1, 2012 at 1:58 PM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX
To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

Hi my SYB:

U teaching kids is so hot. I know it's weird but im a sucker (too funny) for men who deal with animals and kids! You will be really good.  Do it.

Im shopping for the kids with my niece.

 Missing you hugely! !!!!!

Hfg
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Sat, Sep 1, 2012 at 2:48 PM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

If we can get together on Friday I would rather do that.  I am already covering a few other classes.  There are 17 of us who can do it.  No reason why I should have to do so much.

I love you HFG.

SYB
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Sun, Sep 2, 2012 at 12:31 AM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX
To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

If we can get together on Friday I would rather do that. 
Yes, Friday the 14th can work. I'll work on it.

I am already covering a few other classes.  There are 17 of us who can do it.  No reason why I should have to do so much.
No, no reason, unless you want to. You shouldn't if you don't want to.

I told my cousin. You know the one I really like about us. I don't know whether I should've. I hope he can hold to his promise and not tell his wife. I once told him about the fact that his mother had a 20 year affair with a man. He completely blocked it out. I hope he can handle this.

What we each do affects the other. We are connected. I miss you. I will never allow you to brush my hair. Although, I so love you saying you'd like to.

Teach the children karate. You'd be glad you did. You already do that? Do the kids do funny things?

I love you so much, my shiny.

HFG.

 

 

 


 
 
 

 

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