Almost four years ago, I fell in love for the first time--twenty-five years too late--and began an affair. Over the years, Kevin and I have met several times a week and email several times a day. I have kept almost all of the emails that I sent to him and that he sent to me. Along the way, there has been laughter and tenderness and heat...and heartache.

This blog is the posting of our daily emails. It chronicles the lives of two people over a four year period so far, and tells the story of our burgeoning love against the backdrop of New York City.

The names and addresses have been changed to protect the innocent; the rest is 100% real.

The daily update structure helps keep the blog as authentic as possible as well as living up to its title. It also strives to provide the reader with the kind of pleasure that a soap opera offers--a daily dose of voyeuristic fun.

Please begin at the beginning, otherwise, little will make sense.

Enjoy.




Monday, January 5, 2015

Separation Anxiety

Mon, Jul 30, 2012 at 10:21 AM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX
To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

Good morning:

Are you at work or at home today? Finally, the sun is out. I hope it stays that way. My computer is acting up, so I hope it's nothing serious. I found two places, both are near Angie's (72nd b/t 3rd & 2nd) so either should work out fine.

B.Cafe

240 E75th St. near 2nd Ave

It's Belgian and they have a branch on the West side I think, so you may know it.

Another one is:

Vero

1483 2nd Ave near 77th Street

Let me know which one you prefer. B. Cafe is closer, but in case it's too crowded, etc. we can walk up a couple of blocks. I'm glad I get to see you before you leave.

XOXOXO

Me
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Mon, Jul 30, 2012 at 10:29 AM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

Hello gorgeous,

I am at work.  I hope the sun stays out too.  I think it will.

B.Cafe sounds great.  I will get there at 6 or shortly before.  I will send a text.

I wouldn't have wanted to leave without seeing you.  I miss you.  I had such high hopes for tomorrow.

I love you.

Me
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Mon, Jul 30, 2012 at 10:44 AM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX
To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

KK, that's the cool way of saying OK, or at least the 13 year old way of saying it : ) We'll meet at B. Café. I hate having massages before I meet you; after is another story. But before turns what is usually one of the fastest hours of my life into the longest, because I can't wait for it to be over so I can come see you!

I guess I'll just have to suffer today. Wow, woe is so me : ) : )

I had high hopes for Tuesday too, but we can see each other when you get back, right?
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Mon, Jul 30, 2012 at 10:52 AM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

Enjoy the massage.  I would love to spend the longest hour of my life getting a massage. Of course we will get together when I get back.  I am going to be in serious need of some Roya time.

See you at B. Cafe.  I am really looking forward to it.  Have a great day.

I love you.

Me
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Mon, Jul 30, 2012 at 8:35 PM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

I love you.
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Mon, Jul 30, 2012 at 10:13 PM

From: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX
To: Claudia Bonn@ XXXXX.XXX

Good night my love.  You made me so happy today.
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Mon, Jul 30, 2012 at 11:21 PM

From: Claudia Bonn@ XXXX.XXX
To: K<dancing.midnight@XXXXX.XXX

Goodnight my Kevin. I loved seeing you today, as short as it was, but it was so sweet. I'm sorry I'm such a baby about you leaving. Separations in the past sometimes just never ended, and I have to keep reminding myself (after all this psychoanalysis) that it's just dregs of the past. There is no logical reason for it now. Still, I wanted the stupid cab to go before I started to cry and make such a big nini of myself, but he wouldn't go, and I'm like why are you still here? And then it was the light that was red. It was too funny...I'm glad you were there once the light changed. I much rather remember you returning my kiss : )

You're so in tune to me. I hope I'm as in tune to you.

I'm going to miss you so much.  Write when you can. And we must practice once you get back. We are in dire need of some, don't you think?

XOXOXOXOXOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

HFG : ) .
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